Tears on a crucifix.
 
The late mass was done; the old priest blew out the candles, ready to store them away.
Sweet smell of the incense still in the air and surrounding him .
 
He was a bit grumpy, like he was most evenings.
All this work, ever turning wheel of duty,and  for whom?
For the couple of old people that came faithfully to the mass, this small church in a large building?
 
 
Once, many years ago, he heard God call , call him to become a...

 
Why do I believe?
I have been in som many churches, stream of Catholic, Messianic Christian, up to super Charismatic, Baptist, I discovered new ideas and moved on.
Met people that disappointed me and who I disappointed.
Friendship had seasons of growth and seasons of death, because believing in the one Jesus did not happen “their way”.
Still, I believe, why?
For me it is because God proved himself to be true, he touched me, and interfered in a active way in my life, and...

 
The traveler.
Traveling, always traveling on.
No time, no need either for a ongoing standstill.
Traveler through the landscape with the name Christianity.
Traveling past building and Churches, ideas and fast forgotten hypes.
Traveling amazed about so many shortsightedness.
Watching how people by their theology made a carved image of the unseen God.
Just yesterday he walked through the dusty door in the world of history, where documents of past years where praised into magic.
Wat men wrote years ago became never to change stones of religion...

 
My hope is on you...
When my day is different than I planned.
When my dreams are not as reality seems to tell
If life brings me different challenges as where I looked for.
If so many things turn out in a different way.
When I lose control.
If faith seems irrelevant an your hand to far to grap on too.
One thing remains, one thing does not change...
My hope is on you.
On days when I do not understand life, myself, you God, people and so many...

 
 
 
HE WILL TURN THE HEARTS...
 
MALACHI 4:5-6
"Behold, I will send you Elijah the prophet before the coming of the
great and dreadful day of the LORD. And He shall turn the heart of the
fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers,
lest I come and smite the earth with a curse."
 
There are many possible interpretations about these verses and many hold
a piece of the truth, so I don't say that the interpretation expressed in this piece
is the only...

2009…
So, a new year has begun.
A new year with new opportunities or for some a new year with new fears.
First I want to sit down, feet on the table, eyes looking up… being with Father for a moment.
The year has begun; this is where I want to start, close to the heartbeat of God.
I decide to lay my list with good intentions a site for a moment.
My worries and fears are set a site for a moment.
First I want to...

BAKING BREAD
As we pray the Lord's prayer we ask Him to give us our daily bread. This bread could be seen as four different kinds of bread:
 
1.       The presence of Yeshua, the bread of live, dwelling in us through the Holy           Spirit,
2.       The Word being bread as the Word teaches us,
3.       Bread that feeds your body and
4.       The bread of unity that will feed the word with the Message of Yeshua (John 17 from verse 15 on.)...

Christmas.
 
 
Slowly and quietly, not to wake mommy and daddy, the two little boys climbed from there bunk bed, opened quietly the door of their bedroom and walked carefully down the stairs.
 
In the house was it quiet and outside dark, they came to look at the Christmas tree they bought with daddy on the parking lot near the mall. The Christmas tree they decorated with mommy, daddy and their big sister.
 
The lights in the tree where not on now, it was...

Travelling on….
If knowing is nothing more than wishing, if love seem nothing more than a word.
If hope and faith are rusty and worn out; than is there a change for a new beginning.
Seed, sawn, died in the ground; clay and muddy earth.
Don’t give up; embrace trust with arms of courage.
New day is peaking, shy, over the horizon, broken view.
Come from sand, clay, muddy earth, welcome this new time.
Past loneliness, let the sun warm love again.
Let not knowing, rest in embraced,...

The army of stumbling pilgrims…
 
There is an army marching through history.
I walk in this army too together with you and you and you…
This army follows the general and king who started this army according to his fathers plan.
He did not start as king and general; he started by becoming man a baby.
Not in palace but in a smelly stable.
He choose the soldiers not by there qualities but because they where in the eyes of man already disqualified.
He died for this...

Searching to find…
 
Searching to find, and answer, Creator, God?
Searching to find; all is left is quiet emptiness…
Searching to find… Nothing is there.
Just there where I search and find nothing I search for, there is He.
He does not answer anymore; He does not end my searching.
All there is, is He, the great I am…
Searching still searching, no answers, little hope to find what I search to find.
Life is more questions than answers.
Religion, church, believer’s maybe, many claim to have the answer.
I...

 
Choices of the heart…
 
Walls of fire.
Two walls of fire, in between was a path spacious and broad; Christians walked on it, living their life.
They talked with each other, met with each other at regular times, then returned to more or less individual places on the path.
Then the walls parted; in the middle of the path were two ordinary walls, joined at the top.   So the one path became two; above each path was an arch.   On the outside was a...

 
Pilgrim Unity:
Real unity comes not through our understanding but through our not understanding.
 
 
Our deepest purpose is to know God as Father through Jesus the Son, guided by the Holy Spirit of truth.
 
 
Within this is there no time for standing still by found treasures, to built palaces of knowing sure around them
 
Every treasure found is a stimulation to start seeking for other discoveries,
Because we can never know fully and can never know Him fully, not even think about understanding Him...

O BOY THEY PROPHECY!
 
‘Make room for us in your hearts. We have wronged no-one, we have corrupted no-one, we have exploited no-one’.
(2 Cor. 7:2 NIV)
 
It may seem strange to begin an article with this, especially when some well-meaning people are convinced that I have a prophetic calling.  The tree is known by its fruit, I hope.  It is true that the Creator, Adonai literally caused me to be anointed for this ministry eight years ago, by a group of three...

Grace like a sword, love like a fire…
He, Jesus the Christ died for you when you where still a sinner, His grace is there before you earned grace, before you even recognized grace as being there for you.
He, Jesus the Messiah became sin in order to deliver us from sin, and the death that follows sin.
He, the Lord of Lords and King of Kings paid the ultimate price in order to deliver us from sin, our selfish live and from...